Saturday, April 4, 2009

stuff to share

What a week. I thought this was supposed to be Spring, but mother nature decided that we needed more snow. I love snow, but I am more than ready for things to warm up and for the grass to be green, not white. I am ready for the sun to shine, and not watch snow falling, or even the rain.
The girls were on Spring break, but they spent it all inside. At least it's going to be a nice next several days, so that will make up for things. Too bad the girls will be in school. lol

I have some news about Ashlyn. She is not getting better, in fact she now has a fever which she has had all week long. I took her back to the dr. and she has been referred onto the Oncology dept. at a local hospital. So now I sit and wait for the dr's to review her case and decide when she needs to come in to be seen. I sit and time drags. I don't know what is going on. I do know that she is sick. She has been for months. I do know that she has had a small handful of days where she has looked well, and feels well. I do know that my heart is broken. I do know this is similar to what she went through almost 5 years ago when the ped. sent us to the hospital because he thought she might have Leukemia. Thankfully that wasn't the case, and it was decided that she had a virus, but it was also decided that this was something that could return in the future and be something. I do know that this could be nothing. It could be something that she is just going to have to live with and we won't know what it really is or why it happens. I do know this could be something. I do know that this could be something that makes our world come crashing down. I try not to think about that. I try to keep that burried, but it's there every single day. I am unsettled. I feel like I have been punched in the stomach and my breath has been knocked right out of me at times. I want to cry, but I won't. I should. I should get some of this out, but I can't. I want her to get better and to have never had to feel poorly. I want so much that I cannot have right now. I want to take her and suck the ickies right out of her so she can feel good. I want to hold her and never let her go. I just want some answers. I will just have to settle with waiting, hoping that I can have something to digest and work with soon. I just want to know.

I do know that life is one day at a time. That the sun will rise again tomorrow.

I leave you with several scrappy things. I finally got my hands on some of the fabulous Lily Bee papers and they are so pretty! I lack mojo, but I managed to squeak out a layout using the Three Birds collection.
The Easter layout was made for Ally Scraps. Our DT challenge for the month was to create a Spring or Easter themed layout. I used papers from MME. I just love the photos of the girls. They are so young in them. *sniff*
The 'thank you' card is using last weeks sketch (#8) over on the Card Patterns blog.

The 'happy easter' card is for the April 1 card sketch on Di's blog.
Lastly, the Garden Journal was created for the April challenge over on the Artz de Scrap blog. The challenge this month is to alter any sized Notebook using the following color theme : Orange, Greens or Browns.

Have a wonderful weekend, hug your kids and hold them close.


  1. Rae, I'm so sorry to hear about Ashlyn. I will keep her and your whole family in my thoughts and prayers. As a mother, my heart aches for you - I can't even begin to imagine how it must be for you right now. Take care of yourself - she needs you to. I hope you get the answers you need.

  2. Oh Rae, I had no idea that Ashlyn was not well. I will remember to keep her and your family in my prayers. ((((hugs))))


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